Distractions

Ugh. We're currently knee deep into a FET donor cycle. IM just got her first shot of progesterone-in-oil last night which always signifies the real, true, start of a cycle. She loved it :) Our transfer is in a few days...on our anniversary. Nice timing...I just hope to god that it's a sign. A positive sign! It's so distracting to have all of this hanging there. Waiting, waiting. My concentration is completely gone. It's not that I have much to actually think of, you know, regarding the cycle. If I believed it would help I suppose I could pray--but, you know the saying--"Prayer, how to do nothing and still think you're helping." There is nothing I can do. Things are scheduled and that's that. It's out of my hands. My part was done months ago. I just hope things go well. I hope that a couple of our embryos actually survive the thawing process and I hope the transfer goes well. It is our turn for some luck. It has to be our turn. We're ready. Ready and waiting. Trying to be positive.

...if only I could distract myself with work....only I'm too distracted to work.