Letting our guard down...

We've been in the process of moving to a different apartment and we are finding ourselves talking about the prospect of our child who will be our new apartment with us. It's been a strange experience. To be honest, I am a little scared about this new shift in our thinking-- what if we are disappointed again? How would we handle that? When we first started trying to conceive so many years ago, I planted tulips in the fall anticipating when they bloomed we'd be expecting a child and that was 7 years ago. Are we setting ourselves up for failure again allowing ourselves to be hopeful that we will actually be parents?

All our friends who have adopted continue to tell us that we are now embarking on a path that won't fail as long as we remain determined. We are letting our guard down little by little...